Saturday, December 05, 2009

No Wonder I Can't Get Anything Done!

Mitch and the kids (except Tirzah) left for KY on Thursday at about 2:45 a.m. They will come back on Monday night. While my heart is in two places, I am trying to relish my quiet time at home and enjoy the free time.

I am keeping daycare open and on Thursday I "only" had 5 children here (including Tirzah) for most of the day. WOW, it was amazingly quiet and easy. Now, that's not saying that I had all free time. The two older children, who are normally quiet and reserved, came out of their shells and were obviously compensating for the lack of activity in my house. :) Still, just to have a day without homeschool or even older-children-fights was so weird. At lunch time I had to cook for only 3 and myself. I wasn't sure how to do that. LOL. On Friday I had 7 children here because school was out. It was a little more challenging, but greatly reduced compared to normal.

As soon as daycare was over I began cleaning and preparing for a girl's night. Crazy how easy that was and how fast it was, too, to get the floors vacuumed and swept, bathroom cleaned, dishes done, brownies baked. I had a few friends over and we munched and chatted and worked with yarn. All of us. How cool is that? Even Tirzah was cooperative and played nicely, then went to bed on time.

I have realized--it is no wonder I don't feel like I get anything done anymore. I can't finish projects, find no time for sewing, don't reply to emails, sew no diapers, have little time for baking, decorating, or doing repairs. My life is insanely busy. Day-to-day tasks are exponentially more time-consuming than they were even 3 years ago. As I sat here yesterday pondering the state of affairs, there was that nagging voice that popped into my head. If you are a homeschool mom, you probably know the one I'm talking about. It's the one that says, "Life could always be this easy if you'd just send your kids to public school." It continues, "Is it really worth all the hard work? You're crazy. Do you really believe that you are making the best choice?" Ugh. I hate that--but it really IS good to question your own beliefs once in a while. You know? A heart check...let's see where we're at and how that lines up biblically. So I dig my roots in deeper and answer, "Yes, it is worth the sacrifice." What else is more important? Is sewing a diaper more important than shaping my child's worldview? More important than protecting my children from socialist policies of the state? Never is anything more important than the charge that God has given to Mitch and I. God has called us to homeschool. He has called us to have a large family.

So I bask in the glow of God's grace and provision. It is enough. It is all I need.

This morning it is just Tirzah and I. Holly is coming over later. I am going to work on a couple easy projects that are pretty fun. Later I will start some diapers for a friend who is going to have a baby any day now. At some point I'm going to need to go grocery shopping and do some other "work" type activities. Mostly I'm trying to keep "relax" as my main priority. My to-do list is way too long to ever be completed. I don't want to try to make this weekend measure up by how much I have crossed off my list. I think that would equal failure. Instead if I plan to relax...I think that is one goal that today more than any other Saturday I can actually accomplish. After all, when will I have another opportunity to have the house {virtually} to myself??

Here are some pics from girl's night (which, by the way, would normally would have been poker night):

{Tirzah & Leah--Tirzah met her match!!}

I love these next pictures--at the beginning of the night I wrote "Rules" on the whiteboard:
1) Laugh at Steph's jokes
2) Help yourself to my kitchen
3) Have fun or go home

We obviously followed the rules. :)

{Karri & I}

{Tami & Kristin}

1 comment:

  1. Maybe he can take the kids out more often? If I was nearby, I would give you free babysitting so you could sit and make diapers. You do so well at it, and that's a good calling too, you know. It helps people a lot, and it helps everyone be "good stewards of God's creation."
    Take care.